Setting Love Free

I think I've come to understand the idea behind, "If you love someone, set them free.  If they return, it was meant to be."

While I don't like to delve too much into my personal life, I will come out and say it.  I had gone through a break up this past month and just last night, it was "finalized" for my own sake.  I had to know what was going on so that I can move on - we were never the type to keep secrets from each other.  I won't go into details as to why the relationship ended, but I'm just glad that everything's out on the table again and I can move on without having thoughts in the back of my mind as to whether or not it was "my fault."

It'll take a lot of time to adjust.

But because I know that I love him, I refuse to be the person to stand in the way of his happiness.  I will "take all the hits" and make due with what's going on.  Time will heal the hurt.  If I never let him go, time will do nothing but hinder me.

My parting wish is this:

I hope that whoever ends up being a part of your life, that she treats you with respect.  I hope that she cherishes you for who you are and all that you do - not just on the surface, but for who you are, deep inside.  I hope that she supports you in all of your endeavors.  Most importantly, I hope that she genuinely loves you and that she makes you the happiest person in the world.  I wish for the both of you to share in each other's accomplishments, joys and sorrow, good days and bad.  I only wish the best for you and your happiness.

I wish that someone was me.  But I know that for him, I was not that person.  For me, he was... my world.  I fell for him hard, and it'll be quite the journey to get past this.

We'd decided that the best way to go about this was to cut all connections with each other.  It hurts that it has to be this way.  But like I said, I refuse to stand in the way of his happiness.  If that's what it takes for him to be happy, that's how it will be.  I wish we could still talk as friends, but I know that that's not the best decision under these circumstances.  It's such a 180 from what we were, that it will take a long while to adjust.  Having said that, I believe this "closure" will allow me to do so more easily.  And having a phenomenal support group in my friends will help me along the way.

I hope that when our paths cross again in the future, that it'll be in a better light.  I hope one day we could get back to that level of friendship that we had once before and be able to talk about random things again.  For now, this is my final good bye.

My wish to everyone else is the same.  I hope that nobody ever has to go through such heartbreak and that they find the love of their life the first time around.  That may or may not be possible, but it's worth a wish.  :)

A quick thank you to all those who have supported and put up with me through this and kept me from being stupid.  That includes abccddd, USN, EDCF, co-workers, and strangers.

Steel Flame "Love Conquers All" pendant... you will be mine!  :)